today is just not a good day.

To start, its Monday. I feel like Garfield. Second, its cloudy. Its not even raining, just cloudy. Third, I'm out of vitamin D, the only solution known to me for lack of sunny days. Fourth, I have a Spanish test today that I have no desire to study for. For some reason I seem to be lacking motivation in the studying department so far this year. And lastly, this is the first time I've blogged since the beginning of June. How sad. So, all in all, its just not a good day for me.

Memories :)

AWWW <3

No Veggies?

If this fills all the holes in my diet,

can I just drink three of these with every meal

and NOT eat my vegtables? :)

Some things just have to be said...

I have a lot of random thoughts rolling around my head, and there are too many for Facebook statuses.

1. I surely do hate you PMS.
2. There are too many stupid people in this world.
3. America doesn't make the smartest decisions sometimes.
    a) History class make me so mad sometimes.
    b) Example: Apparently, America kicked a democraticly elected leader out of control in Iran in the '50s, cause they thought it was turning into a communist country, and then gave money, support, and military training to the people who now compose the Taliban.
4. Sometimes, I just don't feel appreciated.
    a) Found out today that someone in my building didn't even know my name or that I was the third floor CA. Depressing.
5. It doesn't feel nice at all to be a back-up friend.
    a) Definition: Someone only needed when the friend of choice is not available at the moment.
6. These next 16 days are going to feel like FOREVER.
7. I need chocolate.
8. That's pretty much it.

Its a Thursday night...

Its Thursday night and I'm sitting at home being a good little child doing homework while most other people are out having fun.

This is what I do for the most part(sit at home)... Cause everything everyone else is doing is not exactly in line with my opinions on life.

But, its hard to be a law abiding citizen sometimes when you're the minority, and everyone else is having so much more fun than you.

Another List!

I just love lists; I can barely function without them cause my brains gets too bogged down trying to remember everything. So here's another one. :)

Life Long Goals:

1. Open a bank account in Switzerland. I really want to amass enough money to have a reason to open an account there. :)
2. Of course get married and have little children(mostly little boys).
3. Have my own ranch.
4. Have huge family reunions. This will be made possible by Boo: thank you Boo for wanting so many children, 4 will be just fine for me. ;) haha

Oh, and a side note, I straightened my hair tonight, because I am going to conquer this humidity if it takes every breath in me.

I've found my soulmate.

SO ADORABLE.

Conflicted....

I thought I really wanted to grow my hair out.
The I thought about how cute and easy it was when it was short(er).
But then I think about how long its taken me for my hair to get this long.
Now, I just don't know anymore.
Thoughts?

Me with long hair...

Me with shorter hair...

Bugs = Itchy Becca

For those of you who know me, I pretty much despise bugs. Especially the flying ones. They really gross me out and I'm 99.7% sure that they all get together and conspire to follow me around and fly in my face. Even when I walk around campus with other people, the only person ever bothered by bugs flying into their face is me.

Its like my amazing mother and balls. They tend to find her head. ;)

So conclusion:

I hate them.

Update Again:

1. Play the violin.
2. Take a gun safety class.
3. Learn to be awesome at shooting a bow and arrow.
4. Join a volley ball team.
5. Oh ya, get a job. ( That's a good one) ;) haha
6. Acquire a boyfriend.
7. Get acupuncture and get awesomely adjusted by a chiropractor. (So excited!)
8. Take dance lessons.
9. Be faithful to P90X.
10. Start a bumper sticker business. First bumper sticker will be:

"If the internet had a face, I would punch it."

Update:

1. Play the violin.
2. Take a gun safety class.
3. Learn to be awesome at shooting a bow and arrow.
4. Join a volley ball team.
5. Oh ya, get a job. ( That's a good one) ;) haha
6. Acquire a boyfriend.
7. Get acupuncture and get awesomely adjusted by a chiropractor. (So excited!)
8. Take dance lessons.
9. Be faithful to P90X.

Updated Summer List:

1. Play the violin.
2. Take a gun safety class.
3. Learn to be awesome at shooting a bow and arrow.
4. Join a volley ball team.
5. Oh ya, get a job. ( That's a good one) ;) haha
6. Acquire a boyfriend.
7. Get acupuncture and get awesomely adjusted by a chiropractor. (So excited!)
8. Take dance lessons.

:)

Thoughts on Baseball

1) I figured out why people eat sunflower seeds at baseball games:
    ~ They are probably bored out of their minds.

2) Why the pitcher stands on a mound:
   ~ He thinks he is more awesome than everyone else. Also, its easier to throw down than straight.

Conclusion:
   ~ Baseball games are just way too long. Really, they are.

:)

Guess What!

I just felt the need to point out that I am still single.

The whole nunery idea is looking quite nice again.

Maybe I should add "Get a boyfriend" to my Summer Objectives list. haha ;)

Summer Objectives

This summer, I plan to take up as many hobbies as possible.

My list thus far:

1. Play the violin.
2. Take a gun safety class.
3. Learn to be awesome at shooting a bow and arrow.
4. Join a volley ball team.
5. Oh ya, get a job. ( Thats a good one) ;) haha
6. That is it so far!

So... Ugh

I guess I had a decent day today, but all of a sudden I feel so upset and not happy.

My finger hurts cause a stupid horse bit it for the second time.
I found out(kind of) where Im going to be Head CA in the fall and am honestly kind of frusterated with that too.
Then, I was about to take a shower before I go on duty, and, of course, one of my suitmates gets in there like two minutes before me.

ugh.

There is something wrong with my sleeping mechanism.

I am still awake. I am so upset. Apparently my body didn't get the memo that I wanted to go to sleep... an hour and a half ago. I even took Valerian Root in hopes that maybe, just maybe I would be able to fall asleep before 1am. I shouldn't have gotten my hopes up.

So here I am, laying in bed waiting for Outsourced to load on Hulu, brain fully functioning, not the least bit tired. My body on the other hand wants nothing to do but lay in bed all day long. I think theres something wrong here...

The World Famous Lipizzaner Stallions

My good friend Hannah and I are going to see the World Famous Lipizzaner Stallions this month! They are a very talented breed of horses, and the ones we are going to see are supposed to be the best in the world. They perform high level dressage and what could be considered "horse ballet".They demonstrate just how amazing horses really are.The breed originates in Spain, and that is where the troupe that we are going to see is from. It will be a once in a lifetime experience for us! :)

Why Is my Room ALWAYS a Mess?

For some strange reason, I clean my room, and turn around again and its awfully messy again. Sigh. I guess thats the way it will be.

PS... I was in the middle of a project in this picture. It looks beautiful now. :)

Snow, Snow, I love Snow!

Wall of Fame

To beautify my room, I hung over a hundred pictures up of friends and family and the good old times. It has added a cool aspect to my room and I love them. :)

Sometimes, I Feel Like Punching Some People In the Face

Wow. How immature can some people be? Like, really.

There are a couple of "trouble makers" on the first floor of my dorm. When I say trouble makers, they really aren't bad boys. The just have big egos, and like to be big teases. That was first semester. They still aren't THAT bad, but they have become obstinate, and don't listen anymore. There are three CA's in Smith Hall, and out of the three, they only kind of listen to one of us.

Now, these guys are on the soccer team. They are also from Brazil. Which means they can not only speak English, they also speak Portuguese(sometimes I wonder how much they talk about me).

Combining the above stated facts, they play soccer in the hallway and speak Portuguese. Quite loudly. I live on the third floor, and sometimes, even with my door closed, I can hear them and the soccer ball.

There are clearly stated rules in the handbook that say, "NO SPORTS IN THE HALLS. PERIOD." Something like that. The consequence for breaking the rules is being "written up", which is basically a CA writing an incident report about what happened.

Last semester I wasn't a CA and the sports in the hallway wasn't an issue because they were in season, so they played soccer at practice almost every day. There was no need for soccer in the hallway. Since it is their off season now, they feel the need to play inside.

Now, normally this is not an issue as long as they are respectful and stop when we ask. Recently, they have been extremely rude and mean to us whenever we ask them to stop. So, I told myself, if it happens again, Ill write them up.

The issue with this situation is this(and it really shouldn't be an issue if the other CAs weren't making it one) :

There are about 8 other guys that live in that hall that sometimes throw around a pretend football or respectfully kick a soccer ball back and forth. If we wrote the Brazilians up, we would have to start writing everyone else up even if they weren't really doing anything wrong.

At this moment, I have no problem writing them up, which I probably will end up doing. BUT, my constituents have serious issues with causing issues for the rest of the boys. They are great people, but both really want to be liked by everyone. One also happens to be one of my closest friends that I hang out with every day. So I feel like "I'm in a tight spot" haha.

 The way I look at it, oh well. If they are choosing to be disrespectful to the only authority they have to deal with, them fine. So be it. They will get written up by Becca T.

The simple solution: They stop. If they don't, everyone will be written up for two guys stupidity.

An Epiphany

Tonight, I had an epiphany.
It is this:
 I have known for quite some time that I am not a flirt, and I know I never will be. I am totally fine with that, and am actually glad of it.
The epiphany is that it bothers me when other people flirt in front of me. It is awkward and weird. And for someone like me, who doesn't flirt(ever), it just looks really stupid.
The other part of the epiphany is that I am surrounded by people who thrive on flirting.
The next part of the epiphany is that the reason I feel left out(when I do feel left out, which doesn't happen very often) is that everyone around me are being quite friendly with each other, but I continue to act the same way I always do.
This happened tonight, which is the cause of the epiphany. So, I am now in my room trying to get over my foul, emotional, lonely type mood. These are the nights that I remember how single I am. Sigh.

On a side note... I also realized that when guys do try to flirt with me, I don't really know how to react. It is so foreign to me that three fourth of the time I'm totally oblivious, and the other fourth I just pretend I dint notice. Thus the reason any guy really interested in me will have to try REALLY hard to get my real attention haha.

Sushi!

As we were departing from town, we noticed that the windshield wipers were very frozen due to all of the snow we have been getting. Hannah is trying to get the ice off at a stop light. :)

One of my friends/sushi experts! She quite enjoyed that last piece.

The last piece before it was gone. Unfortunately, I didn't get a picture of all of the sushi before we all dug in. There were probably 12 different rolls though!

The group minus me( all are CAs in the complex)

This dude was carving ice sculpture in like 10 degree weather! I guess it is the only time he could do it though... :)

A Brand New Experience

So this semester, I am riding Saddle Seat. I usually ride Western, and Saddle Seat is pretty much the exact opposite.

This little guy below is Caesar. He is a Morgan and I rode him on the first day of class. That was quite the interesting experience. :)

 This is Desi. He is a Friesian and I rode him today in class. I also pretty much want him to be mine. I loved him that much ! :)

 And, THIS is all of the snow we got last night! We were supposed to only get 4-6 inches, but we got more like a foot! It is so awesome!

Snow in Missouri!

This is last week's snow and the one below this is too. This is one of the oldest buildings(Dulany Auditorium) on campus, and it used to be connected to an orphanage, way back in the day when only women were allow here.

These two are of the snow thats falling right now! At this very moment! :)

My Poor Little Tummy :(

Since Ive come back to school, my poor little tummy will start acting up in the evenings sometimes. This is one of those evenings. I have yet to diagnose the issue here... whether its food, lack of sleep, or something totally different, I really need it to stop. I was sick this past week, and this is what my stomach felt like the night before. My junior year of high school I had mono, and I think that that sickness really weakened my immune system, because I never got sick before that happened. Since then though, Ive been sick at least a couple times, which is abnormal for me and my family in general. So what I have concluded from all of this is...

...Digestive enzymes here I come! :)

Tomorrow

Tomorrow starts day one of me exercising! Yay me!

My goal by the summertime: To have a "beach body".

Wish me luck! :)

Be Your True Self... All The Time

In my opinion, part of being a believer is not contradicting yourself. What I mean by this is not saying one thing and doing another. As most people know, using foul language has become commonplace in our society, especially in the high school and college aged people. One thing I believe strongly in is that as a Christian, people should notice a difference in the things we say and do. If we look and sound just like everyone else, then how are people to distinguish the difference?

There are a couple certain individual here at the Woods that made me notice this in the past couple days. Both of these people use awful language and say things that aren't exactly uplifting. What bothers me though is that both of these people attend the same church that I have been going to on and off.

So why do they do this? This is something I struggle with... being around people who act one way with some people, then turn around and clean up their mouths enough to get through a church service.

Seeing this in others has made me want to be constant, to be myself with whoever I am with. I know it doesn't happen all of the time, but this is something I am going to work on.